You're at an event, mingling,smiling, pretending that you would rather be here than in bed hugged up next to a pint of Haagen Daz Vanilla Swiss Almond and spoon. The 10th person of the hour approaches you and begins the speech that you have heard 9 times already tonight...
"What a beautiful dress."
"Thank you!" you reply with a forced smile.
"So, what are you up to? What have you been doing?"
What have I been doing??? You think to yourself. Well let's see. I have been trying to find a job. Trying to find an Agent. I've been wondering if this business is really for me or if I should say fuck it all and move to a remote island. I've been wondering if my boyfriend of 5 years is ever going to ask me to marry him, or finally get sick of my mood swings and dump my crazy ass. I've been wondering if I'll be a good mother, and maybe I should at least think about having a baby before my eggs dry up. I've been wondering if I have any talent at all. I've been drinking... Yeah, pretty much drinking everyday and wondering if that labels me an alcoholic? Oh yeah, and I've been getting fat.
And then I look deeply into this persons eyes and realize that she doesn't give a rats ass about how I've really been doing. Nope. She wants to hear that I'm in rehearsals for... I've just filmed... Last week my ... was published in ... I just signed with... Had a Red Carpet Event last week for...
I take another close look at the young brown skin woman with what looks like a huge pom pom on the top of her head, and a friendly face and I say...
"I'm enjoying my summer." with a full faced grin.
